Weight of the World.

I miss when everything was okay.
When I could wake up without regretting it.
When I could look outside and find beauty in everything.
I'm replused by everything, for almost a year now.
I want to be happy.
I want to go back to who I used to be.
I want everything to go back to normal.


I miss being a child.
I had nothing to worry about.
No one to worry about.
All I had to care about was how happy I was.
I didn't notice all the bad things going on around me.
I didn't know much about death.
I believed we'd all live forever.
I believed that everyone was happy.
I didn't know about war, natural disasters, poverty, murder, suicide...
I knew about happiness.


As an adult, I've grown so accustomed to these horrible things...
I've forgotten what it's like to be careless.
To be free.


Now I know about all these different problems.
I know about war, terrorism...
I know about murder, I know about suicide.
I know that no one will live forever.
I know that not everyone dies peacefully, or at the right time.
People steal, lie and hurt others.
Nobody really cares anymore, it seems.


Why does no one care?


I want to see the beauty of the world again.
As a child, I was in love with the stars and space.
I still am.
Is that the only remenet I have left of my childhood?
My childhood wasn't the best...but I'm talking before the age of five.
After I turned five, everything started going sour.
But I see now.
I see that no one in the entire world has it easy.
Not for very long, anyways...if ever.
I am thankful for the first few years of my life, when I was happy.


I can only hope that one day, I'll find pure happiness again.
Naturally, of course.


I want to, just for one day, forget about all the bad things.
And just know about the amazing things.
I want to see all the beautiful things of the world.
I want to feel euphoria.
Just once.


I want to know what it truly means to be completely and utterly happy.
I want to fend off this deep depression that I've faced since I was a small child.
I want the anxiety to disappear.
I want all my problems to just go away.
For just one day...just one.


Discuss.